Misconstrued Thoughts : Yesterday's Misconstrued Thoughts Today

my fight not to want tears me
something too far to speak of closely
or believe in strongly
yet too present to be lost
there are no emotions when you're gone
no colors look right
no music makes me dance
nothing moves me
take a scalpel to my heart

Men of Clay-

When your broken down on the side of the road
incapacitated and about to explode
not just a little bit bruised
incapacitated and slietly bemused-
You never have to be afraid
for you have read and you have prayed
Remember that we are made of clay
Never drift or be led astray
Be thankful for the things we are given
and never forget for what we have striven

-JB

How could I lie to myself again.....

These bad decisions a never ending story.....

I think I'd know by now just how to smile....

You're driving me insane and inside out.....

Its meaningful and so hurtful....

There's no place just to hide.....

I can tell you right now that this pain that I feel is not just inside of my mind.....

I can tell you right now that its physical and painful to be so vulnerable.....

I can tell you this pain is so unreal cant help but feel left all alone.....

I can tell you to listen to me when I say to you.......

I know.....

I know this is my fault.....

How could I lie to myself again.....

These bad decisions a never ending story.....

I think I'd know by now just how to smile....

You're driving me insane and inside out.....

Its meaningful and so hurtful....

There's no place just to hide.....

I can tell you right now that this pain that I feel is not just inside of my mind.....

I can tell you right now that its physical and painful to be so vulnerable.....

I can tell you this pain is so unreal cant help but feel left all alone.....

I can tell you to listen to me when I say to you.......

I know.....

I know this is my fault.....

Well it posted it twice........

You just get 2 times to read it..........

Twice the love......

HA.........

I decided to go along with DeepColorsBleed's recurring melancholy theme and post a more personal and depressing poem today. Enjoy...

~Ode to Heartache~

I always want what I can't have..including you
Keeping my heart from dying
With a false dream
that maybe one day
we'll end up happily ever after
Misleading myself into believing
that we'll be together
Imagining what eternity with you would be like
Sheer bliss
But I am awakened
by the sound of my heart
breaking in your hand
I am crushed as reality sets in
Knowing that you will never think of me that way
And I lose hope as I watch my dreams burn
Burn beyond recovery
And all that remains
are ashes of shattered dreams

~Jill E.

i feel happyyy!

Stop talking to me, I'm not your friend.
This you and me make us, this has gotta end.
We're not cool cause I know your mother.
Just cause we look alike doesn't make me your brother.
Go play hide and seek with yourself,
you make me want to go somewhere by myself.
This conversation is a party and your not invited,
its like a boredom trial and you've been indicted,
no one even likes you and we're not trying to hide it.
Just go away, go somewhere and entertain yourself,
feel free to come back when you're somebody else.
Don't touch me don't be my friend,
don't make me have to repeat myself or say this again.

stay is a poison in a glass structure life
leave is an orbit to turn
an inside back out as a birth with a knife
i'm alive in the fire gone burns

We Saw Serenity

In that empty coffee shop,
beneath the arms of those windy trees…
no, you're not just any girl,
you took my hand and led me into a dream…
the storm came and something crashed
inside your mind,
like a windshield…
we tried to dance out in the street,
but there was way too much confusion…
what it meant to you,
lord knows I wonder from time to time…
daydream of you walking by my side
like an oasis in the desert…
oh, if just once…what people mistook for lovers…
could be true…
I wish you still kept wildflowers I put in your hair…
but you ran from my promises,
and then they fell short…
you said, "..let’s drive this Sunday, out to the big houses
and the big trees; we’ll hide beneath them…"
that’s where we saw Serenity
floating down the river like a swan
no, you're not just any girl…
you took my hand and led away into a dream.

dont think.
she only means to give you
the things we know you need
the time to recollect your thoughts
some bright and shining deed
and all your friends wait late in a little lit room
watch me fumble with my past.
knowing every inch of all this red
will disappear so fast

good one

hey jerm, i dont get your writing for the day. its doesnt make any sense, maybe im the only one that doesnt get it but could u please explain it for me?

Hmm..... explain... poetry?... usually one must say it is what it is to the reader...
for me the writer ... as the reader it means,

Many times for some of us it is hard to say stuff... there are those who it is easy to say stuff... and those of us that it is hard to say stuff

In the poem every time the words are not completed (they are still there (they even rhyme...investigate it) But the only thing that the writer can truly admit is that he is trapped by his words... they can not get out as if they are in jail

there ya have it

Jerm

hello agian out there in radio land, tis I the man within.so where o where will I begin. it all started 35 years ago, it was a most delightful day, all the trees at play.the wallaby who had no tail,spied a tutle with no shell. said the turtle i shall look within,but the cloud gave way, and he thumped his knogginon the unused half credit card, it felt like lard.yuk thought he, and then he began to see.a puzzle, just right for the asking. i.e if a jelly fish started out for a discloed island 53.48 miles away,and he could only propell himself along at .012 nauticle miles and hour,how long would it take him if? for the first 17hours43min 38sec everything went find but then he picked up a 1.003 current that prepelled him for 1day 8min 31 sec toward the island but brought him 4.1 degrees off corse. then to re orint himself he had to fight a current that hendered his normal progress by .009 his normal speed. he spent 11hours 10min 2secounds tring not to be a turtle snack in which he traveled in a semi arc which agian through him off .0001 deg, so reajusting his corse he found himself in a tropical current that directed him to his desired island ant 41.03 nautical miles a hour however after 26. 9sec ,he was caught up in hurricane isabel that prepelled to with38.004 sec of his destination he then lazily backstoked in at 27.8% of normal speed how long did it take him to arrive thank you for you'r continued support , and remember friends keep those cards and letters. lpf

Shall I teach you how to know something? Realize you know it when you know it, and realize you don't know it when you don't.